i had my first plum of the season for lunch. plums are my favorite. they’re just the best ever.
so, the weekend was insane. typical friday night, i guess. i wrote about that huh? i don’t know. saturday i had two brunches to attend, met an old boss at pamela’s and then over to b and g’s for their brunch. good times. b gave me the cutest music journal ever. love it. headed through the nht back to gbg. opening for t on sat. night. her show is really nice. i am mentally debating on a few of the pieces. not so great after party, for various reasons, and then home, bitter as always after saturday nights.
sunday i hung with m, multiple times i guess and went to a fundraiser for a gbg related thing. such a crazy mix of people there. good times, i don’t think that our table really helped out the cause that much, but really, whatever. at least i showed up, which was a stretch on that day. watched there will be blood with c and e. i dig having them around. well, I watched the movie, both of them fell asleep during various parts. what is it with boys and watching movies? m’s brother is the same way, although he usually decides what movie we’re watching and then you’re left watching something that you have no interest in. at least i watched it. my favorite character was eli, in case anyone was wondering. so creepy. yeah.
i’m travelling this week again, this time their will be no pleasure- simply work. early and late flights that suck, i’m (needless to say) nervous about checking my luggage. it’s no fun to travel anymore. i used to love it. i guess it’s a pain now, and i’m older. or old. depending on who you ask i guess. so don’t cry when i’m gone this weekend.
while i’m not excited about my destination, it does feel like the perfect time to get out for a while. i’m feeling a bit mentally taxed lately. i have a lot going on a work, some writing projects that i am supposed to be cracking (get that chris?) out, but i’m not able to with other projects. summer is supposed to be this amazing time in academic life, but for me it’s not been. actually from everyone i know it’s been mad stressful, so i am beginning to wonder who is selling this rumor that it’s amazing???? bs. so, work is busy and i’m a bit freaked out about what next year will be like and then i just keep having these missteps in my personal life. it feels like my life is a mess in every area. a constant f ing mess. half of it is related to others, people i’m trying to keep happy and healthy. i just wish i could have one thing together for the moment. i hate writing this stuff here b/c really, it’s my problem, not yours.
(i shouldn’t be blogging in a bad mood, right? if you’re fighting yourself to write, it will most likely end poorly….)
