i’m getting old. there is totally no doubt about it. i was so exhausted from the weekend, i slept like a baby last night. it felt good, but it also made me think “i used to do this all the time” and “i didn’t do all that much this weekend” and “i suck”. this was the height of the summer of busy weekends for me. i sewed on friday night, making some mistakes along the way, mistakes that i fixed yesterday. another shirt complete and another started.
saturday i went to bill’s club for community days. i threw an ax. really. at a target. sure, i didn’t have enough power to implant the ax into the target, but i didn’t hit it a few times, sharp part forward. guess that will not be my career. i don’t think anyway. that night was a show up in der-town. lots of people to talk to, lots of people to hang out with. overwhelming really. stayed not too late b/c i took someone home. i was debating staying over at h’s but didn’t. i talked to d on Saturday night and i think there will be a visit to gbg soon. i’ll love to be the tour guide of the gbg.
sunday i woke up feel like i was going to feel insane. and i did. i get overwhelmed quite easily, mainly when i have to deal wiht others. like dealing with when they will be somewhere, what time i have to pick them up, where to meet. all of that. i love details. i hate dealing with others and details. i don’t know. i guess i just like dealing with me, knowing that i take care of myself, and i don’t really want to have to take care of others (good think i don’t want kids). don’t get me wrong, if someone is in need i will totally help them out, or if they are sad, i’ll be there. it’s just when there is no organization, then i get testy.
i talked to a friend on sunday b/c they were having issues dealing with significant others. nothing major, just annoyances. i felt bad b/c they were so upset, so i spent a lot of time on sunday talking to them about the situation, and trying to not get too involved- i try and not sway people about their situations b/c getting involved in something that doesn’t involve you is a bad scene. and i know the other person involved.
sunday afternoon i went to m.s.’s house- a shame i didn’t get there before he was leaving town for good. i’m a terrible person. urgh. met both of his kids; they were so polite, but what else would i expect from r and m. they will soon be on their way to mn to start their new adventure. i’m excited for them. saw some people there that i hadn’t seen in oh, about 8 years, when i knew m, and he was in bands, and i worked at the mall. everyone looked exactly the same. what else would you expect?
saw mostly the same people from the night before at the benefest. i would have totally participated in the silent auction, had i have known it was going on…. sigh. wtf? i have to just write that i am constantly amazed at 1. how good CSN is and 2. they get better each time i see them. even when i started seeing them a year and half ago they were great….
this week is busy again, i am out of town for a few days and then the party for m’s mom is this weekend. i hope we get to dress up when we go out. need to ask.
i have a plethora of books waiting to be read, yet time seems to be alluding me. oh well. that’s why they let me check out books for 5 months at a time.






